Funny how we wrestle God at times. Earlier today I had the workings of a post on "Becoming a Woman of Vision." I had been chewing on it over the weekend. It was one of those blog posts that I just knew would get a resounding AMEN. However, when I went to post this morning I just couldn't get the words right on the page. I closed my laptop and moved on with my day.
A frustrating day at that. One of those days when it seems necessary to fight God. Struggling when I could have had peace simply because I could not just let God win. Like a child fighting a much-needed nap, tired and worn, I would not relent.
You see... I find myself in a season as a woman where there are some deep unmet desires in my life. Desires that every woman can understand (and if you can't insert your own). To my soul they feel a grave injustice. Like God has ripped me off. So, like every good child I tried to outsmart the parent only to land in more frustration.
This afternoon sitting in my car, drowning out my own thoughts with my best Taylor Swift car dance routine, I decided to put myself in timeout. I turned the music off and opened-up my bible to land right in Job. PERFECT.
This is what I read:
"If you would prepare your heart, and stretch out your hands
towards him."
~ Job 11:13
In that moment I realized why I couldn't get the post out this morning! Why I was striving so hard to only find frustration.
If we are ever to become women of vision, women who are effective in impacting change in the situations and lives that surround us (the women we are called to be) we MUST first allow God to become our vision. Not that our desires as women are wrong or that we should not present them to God. That is EXACTLY the one place we should always present them. But, as my devotional* said this morning "Train your mind to seek me in every moment, every situation." Actively TRAIN your mind to let go and allow Christ alone to become your vision. And find sweet rest for your weary soul.
* Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
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